Disassociate

This i guess is what it feels like for me to disassociate 
I can feel myself do it and sometimes I honestly can't pull myself out of it and it'll take awhile

Most of the time it's accompanied by thoughts and theres two tones to it

One that urges me to pull myself out of it and take care of myself, urge me to eat ect ect

The other one is angry, extremely self deprecating and often self destructive

I'm sad